Thursday, June 30, 2005

reality bites

have emerged from a week of a weird state of part oblivion and part heightened awareness. now that the numbness has worn off, i see that there is a fair bit of way to go before i get to that fantasy place of mental peace and emotional harmony. the fluctuating mood swings are getting scary-madness, hysteria, crazed laughter, frenetic dancing, and then crashing down to the dungeon of unworthiness where imagination drives me to the point of insanity, where i want to shut down my visuals and just lie in deep velvelty black emptiness. anything, even no feeling is better than this.

Saturday, June 25, 2005

my mind and i

whenever i feel afraid, i strike a careless pose,
and whistle a happy tune,
and no one ever knows i'm afraid.

the result of this deception is very safe to say,
for when i fool the people i fear,
i fool myself instead.

Thursday, June 23, 2005

the rainy season

thunderstorms and lightning expected in the next couple of days-however frightening it gets at least i am lucky to have an umbrella.

Wednesday, June 22, 2005


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Tuesday, June 21, 2005

realization 223045

extremely loud music can drown out the noise in my head.

Monday, June 20, 2005

its hard

sometimes the hardest thing to do is to not do anything. you want to scream but you dont-you want to shut off your brain but you cant. what you do is exist like a zombie waiting for the sun to rise again, and the day to come when you wake up and smile looking forward to a new day.
i know it will come-but i will have to go to hell and back.

Friday, June 10, 2005

mumbai masala

I am off to india tomorrow morning-havent packed yet, and i cant believe we are actually going. Will have more to report from mumbai-if anyone has any suggestions of places to visit?

Monday, June 06, 2005

random

Dunkin donuts has great muffins. I had a chocolate one and it was a lovely bbc food-burgeoning-out-of-the-case-muffin. I devoured it doing justice to it in pure nigella fashion. Now while I write this, I have visions of a big mug of tea and my sofa. What I am doing though which is as good is listening to dharak dharak-the new bunty aur babli song. It is fantastic. Just the right amount of amitabh flavour and funk. So I say hum chale hum chale, oye ram chandray. By next week I will have watched this movie in India and I will have lots more to sing and dance about. yippeee.